Memorial, Amelie's Beach

I want to write about this day but as of yet, I haven't been able to - I cannot take myself back there, I cannot re-live it - I'm not ready.

Maybe I will never be.

To have to bury your child, is simply incomprehendable.

It was a beautiful memorial, we spread my babies ashes into the ocean on our favourite beach El Matador Beach,
now Amelie's Beach, in Malibu.

This is I know how she wanted it.

All our family was present, through our tears we all told her what was in our hearts.

I read her my letter. 

We said goodbye.