Why Blog?

I always thought Blogs were stupid. Why would anyone want to write about themselves, what could be so important? Why would anyone read it? Who would care?

Now suddenly, I have such an intense need to write one. First for my sanity, to make sense of all my tangled emotions, my pain. Also I want to help others going through a similar situation, see that they are not alone, maybe I can make them feel a little better, even for a second, it will be worth it. I also want those reading this, going through life not having been effected by such a tragedy, to realise just how damn lucky they are. I used to be just like you. I would hear of sadness, losses, sickness happening to others. I always empathized, felt sad...but then I would move on with my life.

I always assumed it would never happen to me, but it did.

Things happen, life is so unpredictable and they can happen to anyone. Life is so short, so fragile. Babies, children are such miracles and parents are so so lucky to have them. If you have babies, children please hug them, kiss them love them, spend time with them, be patient - give them all you can every single day, be the best parent you can be. 

Think of me and my baby, and know each day just how lucky you are to have them.