IVF Post: #5

IVF Round: #1 , attempt: #2 here I come.....Looks like it is all really all happening. I'm officially back on the  Lupron and the Birthcontrol pills. Retrieval and Transfer estimates have been calculated by my doctor (approx. 3 weeks from now. These are not certain of course and can vary give or take a few days, depending on how I react, how my ovaries and eggs develop.) I also calculated my possible due dates, how could I not? From the shots, I feel so exhausted, so weak and so sick constantly. Lupron makes you experience  Menapause, while the BC pills are just plain horrible. Water retention, weight gain, mood swings, crazy unpredictable up and down emotions..(as if I didn't have that right now anyway).....I am so not myself anymore. I'm sure this is nothing compared to what is to come later as the IVF progresses. I'm not complaining though, I feel fortunate to have the opportunity to do this, I am so grateful and so hopeful at the same time. When I think of the goal, the end result, all this suffering during the IVF is nothing, and it's all just so worth it. I would do it a 100 times over. After what I have been through,  losing my child, I feel like I can survive anything.  I made it through that (ok barely, but I'm still here)...then this is nothing, I can do this.